Miss TCY

30042011

Hello everyone!! This is the first day where i started blogging. I just hope that by writing in english can help in polishing my rotten english. Hmm..What should i write? Well..Still wondering... Will it be the last post? Oops!! Maybe. I seldom express my feelings through writing as i know that my mood varies everyday. If i got a bad mood today and i surely dont want to recall it back on the other day. Thats the reason why i dislike blogging. However, boredom got the better of me. Hah!!

It's the last day of April and i receive a “加油”message from a long-time-no-see friend who used to play, laugh and study together for a year. But, old days will never come back and memories hurt. From the first day i step into the university, i knew that we will be separated. "We" here refers to a bunch of friends which came from the same secondary school and then entering matriculation programme together. But we are separated due to the different goals that we would like to achieve in life. After entering university, we seem to have a brand new life with new environment, friends, experiences etc...On the process of coping with the new things, we face a lot of ups and downs. As for me, at least till now, there are more downs than ups.

Today, someone told me about this:

You know you should continue working hard and hard and hard until you reach the top of the world. But then dont know why somehow yourself will start to change unconsiously. You will start to drop, little by little, and at one time, a great drop from top of the world to the most bottom part of it.

After that u will suffer for days, months or even years.While u are suffering, your mind will keep on reminding you to fight fight fight and everytime after you motivate urself to fight,it lasts only for few days, few hours even few minutes and then it goes.

Sooner or later,you would get use of it and become no feelings towards anything and your status currently is the worst of ur life.Sometimes worse than going to hell. Then so suddenly you wake up and realise something. This is the time you will start to grow up but this is also the most difficult part of it. You need to face the new challenges while solving all the previous problems you yourself created. Most people failed and then they never succeed in life anymore but those who succeed have become the top among the top now and my life now is just reaching the wake-up state and going to succeed in the biggest challenges or troubles or continue to failing. Till now i am not sure which one i will step into...

This reminds me of myself .Maybe i am still a tortoise that is currently in the climbing process. But I WILL MAKE SURE THAT I WILL REACH THE PEAK OF THE MOUNTAIN ONE DAY. That is a promise to myself.